Holy moly idk what is happening but I had dinner and then a granola bar and then went to my band concert and came home and all of a sudden I was STARVING and had an apple and almond milk and loads of almonds and I’m still starving and munching away on pretzel goldfish (the best) but seriously stomach what is up???
Also I can’t wait to go to college because my family is driving me nuts. It’s borderline intolerable but I’m trying to just handle it quietly because there’s no sense having a zillion arguments right before I leave, and I want to make the most out of the time I have left and not spend it being upset and angry with people but JESUS sometimes I swear I’m so close to losing it..
So my knee felt fine all day today and then in last period GYM TENNIS of all things, something funky happened and it started hurting so badly again. I couldn’t even make it through my two warmup laps, I was limping so badly on the first one. My coach told me to stretch and that I could either bike, walk, or do nothing. He said at this point, it wouldn’t hurt me to just take the days off until the meet which I do NOT want to do, because even if it physically won’t hinder my training, I feel like mentally I need to be doing SOMETHING to “prepare” myself for states. So I chose to bike and was like meh, this is gonna be stupid and useless but it’s better than nothing.
It felt like SUCH an amazing workout for my legs, and I was completely pain free the entire time. I have probably never sweated that much during any workout I’ve ever done, and my legs feel so amazing. I was actually breathing pretty hard, too. Never again will I underestimate the power of cross-training, and I seriously think that I’m going to, over the summer and during college, take either a recovery day or a medium-mileage day and turn it into a biking day because wow my legs feel great.
Such a great evening—my friends and I made a HUGE fruit salad, and ate so much of it! We went to the store first to get all the fruit and I also got sushi for me to have for dinner. It was so much fun to make it, and then we went and visited our other friend at work and brought her some of the brownies I had made yesterday, and then we came home and I had sushi and we talked some, and then went outside to play Frisbee for a while (we got so much better by the end!), and came back in and hung out for a while before they went home. It was a lot of fun. And it’s nice to finally feel again like I have friends who truly want to spend time with me—I’m not just the boring, chronically tired, chronically miserable person I used to be.
Aw this message in and of itself is super inspiring and it really means a lot that you took the time out of your day to write this to me :) Thank you so much!!
Today was great for a myriad of reasons so I’m gonna resort to my favorite: lists!
aw hah thank you. it makes me feel really good to be productive—im always in a better mood, have more energy, and feel more self-confident when ive had a productive day. I like to know that I can say I accomplished something by the end of the day, even if its just cleaning the whole kitchen or finishing my homework. And if I do these things earlier in the day than I don’t have to panic at the end, and I have the whole afternoon to either relax and give myself a break or to get even more done. you can be productive with your day as well! Just decide that you’re going to do something, put everything else away, and don’t stop until you’re done. if you need a few breaks to help you get through, that’s fine. but make sure you get back to it, and remember how good it feels to get things accomplished!
Whole wheat black bean brownies!! They came out a little dry unfortunately—as you can probably see in the picture—and I probably could’ve baked them 5 minutes less.
But despite their dryness they taste so good!
It’s not even 11:30 and I’ve already:
-done half my english homework
-gone on a run in the rain (4.53 miles)
-showered and washed my hair
-come up with an idea for my english project
Now my plans for the day:
-have a huge breakfast
-bake black bean brownies (omg so excited)
-finish my homework
-go to the library and get a book
-maybe start working on my project