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Holy moly idk what is happening but I had dinner and then a granola bar and then went to my band concert and came home and all of a sudden I was STARVING and had an apple and almond milk and loads of almonds and I’m still starving and munching away on pretzel goldfish (the best) but seriously stomach what is up???

Also I can’t wait to go to college because my family is driving me nuts. It’s borderline intolerable but I’m trying to just handle it quietly because there’s no sense having a zillion arguments right before I leave, and I want to make the most out of the time I have left and not spend it being upset and angry with people but JESUS sometimes I swear I’m so close to losing it..

healthystephy:

food doesn’t need a thousand health benefits to justify eating it

Holy legsssssss

So my knee felt fine all day today and then in last period GYM TENNIS of all things, something funky happened and it started hurting so badly again. I couldn’t even make it through my two warmup laps, I was limping so badly on the first one. My coach told me to stretch and that I could either bike, walk, or do nothing. He said at this point, it wouldn’t hurt me to just take the days off until the meet which I do NOT want to do, because even if it physically won’t hinder my training, I feel like mentally I need to be doing SOMETHING to “prepare” myself for states. So I chose to bike and was like meh, this is gonna be stupid and useless but it’s better than nothing.

Boy.

Was.

I.

WRONG.

It felt like SUCH an amazing workout for my legs, and I was completely pain free the entire time. I have probably never sweated that much during any workout I’ve ever done, and my legs feel so amazing. I was actually breathing pretty hard, too. Never again will I underestimate the power of cross-training, and I seriously think that I’m going to, over the summer and during college, take either a recovery day or a medium-mileage day and turn it into a biking day because wow my legs feel great.

Such a great evening—my friends and I made a HUGE fruit salad, and ate so much of it! We went to the store first to get all the fruit and I also got sushi for me to have for dinner. It was so much fun to make it, and then we went and visited our other friend at work and brought her some of the brownies I had made yesterday, and then we came home and I had sushi and we talked some, and then went outside to play Frisbee for a while (we got so much better by the end!), and came back in and hung out for a while before they went home. It was a lot of fun. And it’s nice to finally feel again like I have friends who truly want to spend time with me—I’m not just the boring, chronically tired, chronically miserable person I used to be.

5/20/13

Today was great for a myriad of reasons so I’m gonna resort to my favorite: lists!

• went to the bodies exhibit on a bio/anatomy field trip and it was SO. COOL. Ive been there before, but it was a different exhibit since the one that I went to was damaged in Sandy. But seeing everything from a perspective where I know what’s actually going on was really awesome
• came back just in time for last period—French—where I took a nap while we watched a movie
• my knee was hurting last night and this morning, and I told my coach about it before school when I saw him in the hallways and he told me i’d be biking today -___- But at track I did my warmup laps and stretched and he told us (the four of us remaining that train together) that he had to change up plans because of a freshman meet tomorrow, and we were gonna do our workout today and do a road run tomorrow. And he asked me if I’d rather run or bike today and before he even finished his sentence I was like “run!!” and so he let me do the workout and im being confined to the bike tomorrow instead. grr. But at least I got out today—it wasn’t much since we’re tapering hardcore, but it was something.
• planning on icing a TON tonight and taking advil so that hopefully tomorrow it’ll feel better and I can run, too
• I figured out my racing schedule for the rest of the season with my coach—i’m in the 4x800 this Friday during states, but hopefully i’ll have qualified for the county meet of champions next Tuesday (I’ll find out by Thursday), and I can finish my season with one last mile. I’ll be shitting my pants the entire day if I’m in that meet, but I’m still praying for one last shot.
• My friends are coming over tonight and we’re making a fruit salad
• o
• m
• g
• so excited
• that is all :)